because its you~

I miss you. i miss you so much !

I keep getting scared because I love you

I worry that you might get farther if I get closer

So I can’t even talk like a fool

My heart grows faint at the thought of you

I just let out sighs and randomly laugh and cry

It hurts because of you

Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love

I can hold it in several times

Because I only knew you from the start

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you

It hurts so much, it’s so hard but because it’s you, I’m okay

As I always have worried

I look at you, I wait for you and get exhausted

Because of you, I get sad

 Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love

I can hold it in several times

Because I only knew you from the start

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you

It hurts so much, it’s so hard but because it’s you, I’m okay

Because it’s you, because it’s you that I love

Because it’s all you, because it’s you that I miss, I love you

I keep getting greedy, I keep crying

Because its you, because it’s all you

Love is feeling ~

 

love is feeling. love is a beautiful feeling. but, love also can hurt that feeling. love can change a little thing. and a little thing that called love can change everything. without love , we feel alone. with love also we feel alone. love is something that can be important nor can be unimportant. love is variety of thing. a lot of thinking. a lot of multiasking. so , what actually love is it? ppl said love is to be loved by someone that we love. they said that love can give more happiness in life. love is not only from someone that have called 'boyfriend' 'crush' 'husband'. but love also from family. parent. siblings. friendship. 

L O V E.  a little thing can make us fall in love. can make us love someone with all of life. can make us missing like crazy ppl ! everything begin with love, can change us into different person. believe or not. thats the facts ! evetho many ppl said love can hurt more than a swords , but many ppl love to be loved. because as a human we need love in life. love can give us something that make tears turn to smile. but, that can change smile to tears too. often . 

but, me. different with others. i hve been in love for many times and i hve been hurt also . so for me, for this time, love from ppl that called 'man' is not exist . i am not ready yet for new love. my heart hurt too bad. all i need is love from my 'Creator'. the 'Creator' that create me and love. if i fall in love once again soon, i hope that love come from behalf of my 'creator'. 

i miss you Muhammad Hassiefulkiram . i miss you so badly . i always du'a for your happiness. i hope you'll find ur spouse that deserve you. not like me. i am woman with bad background. im still cant forgive myself. im sorry for leaving you. thats the hardest thing i need to do. i am so sorry, but i love you. the truth.

me, Qqh.

Sad year ever !

What a sad year ! :( . Bismillahirahmanirahim. semester 5. lagi 3 minggu nak final exam . 3 assignment still tak submit . microteaching. game board. reka bentuk permainan . semuanya assignment yang sangat susah tahap petala kelapan . damn damn . dengan situasi yg sengket bengket . semester yg boleh tahan susahnya. boleh terjebak dengan join theater competition pulakkk da. peringkat negeri selangor pulak tu. adudu. nasib baik dapat jugak hadiah even saguhati. nasib baik dah setel teater . sekarang ni nak kena hadap assignment . otak blank gilers !

seriously banyak sangat perkara terjadi dalam semester 5 ni . 29 september haritu , aku dapat call yg akak aku bleeding . dan dia bersalin awal. tapi baby tak dapat survive . meninggal. muhammad adam arsyad bin muhammad farhan. anak sedara yang pertama. tbh, aku manusia paling excited bila dapat tahu my sister is pregnant . bahagia sangat. tapi bila jadi semua ni. aku juga manusia paling sedih gilaaa kot ! menangis sepanjang hari dan malam. dahsyat dari putus cinta kot.

dear ahmad harris firdaus dan muhammad adam arsyad , angah sentiasa merindui kalian. kalian sentiasa dalam doa angah tau !

okay. 5 november baru baru ni aku test jpj dan aku lulus dengan cemerlang. alhamdulillah . dan dengan rasminya aku pemegang lesen kereta moto. hihuuuu. selama ni aku lembang pajero abah pakai lesen BERANI , so sekarang boleh lembang civic umi pulak la kan.

dannnnnnnnnn. N O W . sekarang tengah menghadap lesson plan untuk microteaching selasa ni . aku ingat nak jadi cikgu ni senang. tapi , ya rabbi. susah nak mati. aku memang kena sambung master bagi mengelakkan diri ni jadi cikgu, takpun lari dr bidang pendidikan terus. aku suka belajar. sukaaaa sangat. tapi , well said, aku dulu budak nakal. attitude kelaut. disiplin apatah lagi . akhlak tu, alhamdulillah dah jadi orang.

hape hape pun demi nak meraikan cuti semester yg akan datang tak lama lagi. insyaallah aku nak start marathon study *konon* .



kbai, qieqie